Sunday, January 29, 2012
纤云弄巧 飞星传恨银汉迢迢暗渡
金风玉露一相逢
便胜却
人间无数
柔情似水 佳期如梦
忍顾鹊桥归路
两情若是长久时
又岂在 朝朝暮暮
Saturday, November 26, 2011
I should really stop falling in love with people's voices. Perhaps it's because of the fact that I play music, or maybe it's just because I'm particularly sensitive to sound, but I find myself falling in love with voices more than I fall in love with people. I'm not referring to powerful, high-ranging vocals by singers out there whom everyone would agree to have awesome voices; more like random songs I come by from unknown people who do not possess distinct powerful vocals, but have the ability to touch me with the rawness of their voices. It only takes an expression of a particular word, executed with one's particular tone, to take my heart away. In fact I secretly hope that my future guy is one that'll captivate me with his voice before anything else :) (not muscles hehehe)
好温柔，好温柔的一副声音
Friday, November 18, 2011
I wish I was abit more productive, but somehow I'm enjoying my zen mode now. I won't go into a rehash on how hectic and stressful this semester had been, because I think it's unhealthy to keep locating yourself back in a mode you hate. So, I'm gonna look forward, and try to imagine what my next semester would be like :)
It will ideally be a four day week, where I will get to go for guzheng lessons on my free day, and get to spend more time at home. It will also be a semester with an evenly spread out workload over the weeks, so I don't face the problem of having to stay up late multiple nights in a week. That also means that I will get to have better health, due to less stress and anxiety.
I'll get to visit ahma's house more often, and this is especially important to me now that I am leaving for China for a year after semester 2. I'll take more time to build and maintain relationships, and spend more time discovering and appreciating life.
I'll take a day out each week to stroll down the walkways of my estates alone, exploring where my feet take me to.
I'll sit down, breathe, and empty my mind.
Sem 2, I'm waiting for you.
Saturday, October 08, 2011
Record of the day: took a grand total of 3 afternoon naps while slogging through my biod paper. While it isn't the most appealing subject to me, it really isn't that bad. It's not a lack of interest that's making this painful, but it's a lack of direction. I need some spurts of creative juices and a stroke of ingenuity badly now. Ideas, you have to flow - now! I have to get this done by 1am, and then have a good rested weekend after that. It's been a couple of weeks since I had some life. I'm terribly sorry to my close friends for the constant lack of time to meet up. I haven't even been going for pranic healing or guzheng lessons this semester. Goodness, I have to strike a better deal with time, and hopefully I can gain this balance back by next semester before I leave for China!
Jiayou me with my assignment. Go go go, feizai.
Thursday, June 02, 2011
The past few weeks whizzed by pretty unproductively. (Maybe except the GE week!) But as I have always said, I indulge in such unproductive days. I get to wake up at embarrassingly late times, aka sleeping for 12 hours or more per day, spend a day reading a book, online shopping, meddling with the piano and the guzheng - not having to check the clock to keep up with every passing second. I don't think I ever thought of myself as a K-drama fan. The only ones I watched were the ones screened on Channel U in the early days of the K-drama wave, and subsequently, Goong & BOF only. Fast-forward - and it's 10 years since the wave hit SG! That's 10 years since I watched my first Korean drama - 秋天的童话！I was a P4 kid then, watching snippets of the show with my parents on Thursday nights. Thanks to a TS sale, we bought 2 K-drama DVDs home to indulge in for this June holiday! My mum, sis and I have developed a habit of chasing a drama together during school holidays :) & I think it's a great way for family bonding haha :) So anyway, yes we watched 'My Princess' and just when I thought I wasn't muscles-obsessed anymore.... I declare myself a Song Seung Heon fan, or should it be 'fan of Song Seung Heon's muscles'?? And so, crazy me went down to TS again, and got another 2 DVDs on sale - both starring my number 1 idol now hehe. And then I decided to rewatch 秋天的童话 again this afternoon, and ended up crying my lungs out. I honestly have no recollections of the first few episodes I watched today! Probably didn't watch the front parts 10 years back.
The past few weeks have testified that my hobby can now be 'searching-for-tragic -films/dramas-to-watch-to-cry-my-heart-out'. :) It feels cathartic! What I love about it is that I can immerse myself in that sea of emotions, yet escape from that lingering pain in reality.
Thursday, April 28, 2011
我知道我也才20岁不到，但认识我的朋友都应该会明白‘娘’这外号不是白给的。 当我上中学时，已经开始向往我以后的家庭生活。 我甚至好几次做梦到我结婚了，在婚礼上幸福的样子，只可惜我并不记得新郎长得什么样！ 也做梦到自己有个很美满的家庭，在家里和年幼可爱的孩子享受天伦之乐。做这些梦时，我大概也才17岁不到。
也因为从小就为我的未来设定了这一种向往，我近来开始害怕，害怕这一天可能不会到来。很多人常说 “人海茫茫里总会遇到适合的人”。 但爱一个人很容易，要两人彼此相爱靠的是缘分，时机。 要两个相爱的人能成为彼此的终生伴侣更不是理所当然的事。 要终生伴侣能够彼此扶持，能够在踏入婚姻10，20，30年后对彼此仍持着最初的热情，最可贵，但也来的不易。这是我理想化的追求，憧憬。
可是近来，我开始意识到，世界存在着太多太多的阴差阳错，太多的遗憾。况且，白马王子不一定是理想丈夫，理想爸爸。这才让我第一次感到自己的理想好像显得有点遥不可及。没错，世间上的确存在着如此完美的故事，可要在我身上发生那么一段难能可贵的故事可是另外一回事了。别担心，我不是对未来失去了希望，而是开始意识到这理想并非是个理所当然，对自己的期望作一些调整。
执政党候选人沈颖就这么说道：“白马王子可遇而不可求，他可能一辈子也不会出现，何必白等。如果一方面要有自己的家庭和小孩，另一方面又要期待白马王子的出现，如果白马王子不出现，我的人生目标岂不是要泡汤了吗？人生目标不能泡汤，所以（对）白马王子（的期望）要调整一下。” 我想，是这几句话提醒了我。自己父母的例子也似乎证明了这一点。父母很坦白地告诉我他们并不是彼此的白马王子或公主。就因两人合得来，觉得彼此是能组织家庭的伴侣，所以便顺其自然地结婚了。没有我梦幻中轰轰烈烈，刻骨铭心的爱情。也常听他们说，是感情多于爱情。
但我还是抱着那小小的期望。我可能也会是那完美情节的主角。但，我也必须明确一点 - 我可能一辈子都遇不到我的白马王子。
要在对的时机，遇到对的人，靠的就是‘缘分’这两个字吧。
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Revising for Chi biz has been quite a pain. I guess the only part which I enjoyed throughout the module was the writing of the heritage paper. Revising for film mod has been exciting. I have taken a particular interest in 'Farewell, My Concubine'. Anyone who hasn't watched it pleaseeeee do so. The film really speaks to someone like me with an inexplicable emotional connection to modern chinese history. Even without the history bit I think one would be equally mesmerized by the acting of Leslie Cheung as well as the directorial skills. I started researching for online journal articles regarding the film and I ended up gasping in amazement whenever I came across something insightful.
Way too much a difference from Monday and Tuesday when I was drowned in my boring chi biz notes. I really have no interest in learning about networks and trade routes :( And by the way, it's a HISTORY module. I cannot imagine what would have happened to me if I majored in business or any major that I didn't have the passion for, given that the element of history in this chi biz module was already not sufficient to make the subject matter interesting enough for me.